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go there to listen to an AMAZING song...click on "Was that my life?" This is a perfect song for anyone taking life for granted, makes you think. I love it, gives me chills here are the lyrics....p.s. FORGET THE RISK AND TAKE THE FALL, IF IT'S MEANT TO BE IT'S WORTH IT ALL....


don't wanna be the one who's old before their time
and lose the wonder that I felt as a child
Can't run this race believing I might lose.
Still so much to see and so much left to do.
Yes, I'll fall before I fly
But no one can say I never tried.

Oh we just get one ride around the sun
in this dream of time
It goes so fast
But one day we look back and we ask,
"Was that my life?"

I close my eyes and think how lucky I have been
To hold the ones I love and share my dreams with them
All those sunny days and all those starry skies
Good morning kisses and sweet goodnights
Oh I can't tell them enough
Just how much that they are loved

Oh you just get one ride around the sun
in this dream of time
It goes so fast that one day we look back
and we ask, "was that my life?"

We just get one ride around the sun
in this dream of time
It goes so fast, that one day we look back
and we ask, "was that my life?"

"ooh, was that my life..rollin' on by?"

"rollin', rollin', rollin, rollin' on by....
was that my life?"

WATCH THIS IT'S AMAZING!

I want a first dance like this!:)

If you have a moment stop and think of me

This song is AWESOME...so is the movie...Here are the lyrics to those that care:

Think of me
think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me
once in a while -
please promise me
you'll try.

When you find
that, once
again, you long
to take your heart back
and be free -
if you
ever find
a moment,
spare a thought
for me

(Transformation to the Gala. CHRISTINE is
revealed in full costume)


We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but if
you can still
remember
stop and think
of me . . .

Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .

Think of me,
think of me waking,
silent and
resigned.

Imagine me,
trying too hard
to put you
from my mind.

Recall those days
look back
on all those times,
think of the things
we'll never do -
there will
never be
a day, when
I won't think
of you . .

(Applause, bravos. Prominent among the bravos, those
of the young RAOUL in the MANAGERS' box)

RAOUL
Can it be?
Can it be Christine?

Bravo!

(he raises his opera-glasses)

What a change!
You're really
not a bit
the gawkish girl
that once you were...

(lowering his opera-glasses)

She may
not remember
me, but
I remember
her...

CHRISTINE
We never said
our love
was evergreen,
or as unchanging
as the sea -
but please
promise me,
that sometimes
you will think of me!

Ill be alright as far as i can tellll

Here are some things many of you don't know about me. I forgot about them myself for a little bit, but after all was said and done I thought, "Oh yeah, I'm cool like that."



First Off: I can not, do not, and will not hold grudges. I never have except for in one case, and I never will. I tried to recently, it didn't work. It's not me, and I now never expect myself to let something weigh on my mind so much that it makes me a less happy person for more than two weeks...THAT is my maximum.

Secondly: I am not one to stay sad. A week is my maximum on that, and that was last Tuesday to this Tuesday. I'm done being openly sad. I'll be sad inside if it happens but very few will ever know again. Until recently the longest I've stayed blue was when my dog died...that was three days. So, yet another reason why I love how I have turned out.

Thirdly: I get over stuff. Now let me clear this up; I may still have feelings for someone, I may be annoyed by something that happened, I may hate it when I see someone get hurt by someone else, but I've come to the point in my life where it doesn't stick in my mind for too long. Yes, something bad happened, yes it hurt me/them, yeah, I wish it turned out differently but let's move on and make the next chapter of our lives, shall we? That's how I am, that's how I want to stay. I'm not sayin' that I don't have any feelings of loss or anything, trust ME, I sooooo do, I'm just sayin' why do they have to rule a life for a month? Can't they rule it for like a day or two?

Fourth: I am still a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. It may suck on the way there, I may hate every minute of it, I may cringe to the thought of change, but when all is said and done something awesome will happen soon, and, like everyone says, you never know what can happen.

I owe my transformation from sulky lame girl to normal Kels to; God, my state-the-truth family/friends, and Boston. Yes, Boston. There was one time last semester when I found an annoyed Trav in his dorm room listening to Peace of Mind on repeat. I asked why, he said it helped. I tried it yesterday...Trav was right.

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.

It snowed last night...

A fun, convenient way to pay for lunch...
In other news, tomorrow will be one week since my breakup and besides me only eating one serving during meals instead of my normal two servings life is pretty much normal except for the random cry attacks...and miss-placed anger. Let's just say so far I've kicked one sister in the butt cuz she poured water on me and slapped another one's hand when she tried to steal my cell phone from me. They were both pretty comedic instances but when you realize I haven't really yelled at anyone since I was like 6 it hits you that yes, I'm coping but I'm not close to over all this.

7 months and 12 days

I am now single.
My eyes are burning.
I kind of want to puke.
I feel like crying at the most random moments.
There are some lyrics that keep running through my head that wont stop:

"And then I'd say I know its tough
When you break up after seven months
I know you really liked him and it just don't seem fair
All I can say is pain like that is fast and it's real
Oh, you've got so much going for you, going right
But I know, at 20 it's hard to see past midterm night
He wasn't right for you and still you feel like there's a knife
Stickin' out of your back and you're wonderin' if you'll survive well
You'll make it through this and you'll see
You're still around to write this letter to me"

-letter to me Brad Paisley-

Dinnertime Memories

While at lunch at Taco Time with my mamma and dad today we started to reminisce about when they were in elementary school and how all the nuns back in the day loved second generations and how they all called my dad Tommy (his dad's name) even though they all knew it was Bill. So as we progressed in our conversation and after I had shared some of my more embarrassing moments in elementary school I asked dad for a story he'd never told before and I got one of the best ones out of him ever, and he had actually kinda forgot about it, but the imagery was so vivid and so clear in my head I'll never forget what he told me.

As dad told it, he was about 8 years old and he was walkin' home from school a week before Christmas vacation. It was probably 3:30 and it had snown earlier in the day so there was a fresh, sparkly layer on the ground. The sun had just come out, making it colder since there were no clouds to insulate, plus it was almost sunset time, but he remembered seeing the snow crystals in the air as he walked home. He was a tiny guy when he was a little kid and he couldn't even be seen over a snowbank yet. He told me that he remembers his goulashes that he was wearing, the book bag he was carrying full of art he was taking home from school, and the way the snow sounded beneath his feet. He remebered how cold and pretty it was and that he loved the fact that though it was only 15 minutes after school got out that he was entirely alone during this perfect moment in his life.
This is the part that made me smile more than anything; He said that at that time, though he was only 8 he remembered being filled with so much joy on this one afternoon cuz everything was so perfect and thinking to himself, "It doesn't get any better than this." He was 8! So there he was, soaking it all up, the crystals in the air, the sun above, the crunching snow underneath his feet--One little boy, for once completely by himself living in the moment grateful just to be alive on that one, perfect, snowy afternoon.

I've had those moments, I love those moments...I dare say I live for those moments. These days they come when I'm walking to an early class or when I'm chasing a sunset out in the country, but without a doubt in my mind God gives us those times to say to us, "Hey, this is real beauty. Imagine this feeling every day, I offer it to you, don't forget to notice it."

Everybody knows that the world is full of stupid homework.

Hhhhhhokay, so:

Someone very close to my heart has been having a pretty lousy week, he's very stressed and somewhat unhappy. If you found this and a red rose on your windshield would it give you hope?

A prayer for when you’re feeling discouraged:
“O Lord, In this time of need, strengthen me. You are my strength and my shield; You are my refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. I know, Father, that Your eyes go to and fro throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts long for You. The body grows weary, but my hope is in You to renew my strength.
I do not fear, for You are with me.
I know You will strengthen me and help me; that You will uphold me with Your righteous hand. Even as the shadows of doubt and sadness cover me, I feel the comfort of Your strength, Oh Lord.”

~Don’t Quit~

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,

You will succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worse, that you must not quit.

~author unknown~

Love,

KJH

Yes, good? Would it bring any of you from the pits of accounting and business law to the world of optimism and hope? If not, you don't have a soul.

P.S. To those of you salsa dancing with married men while their wives are watching...don't forget to wear gloves.

The Unknown

It began with a simple gaze
A bond through the setting sun
Something infallible, something exceptional

Throughout the seven months
Tears, Joy, Honesty, Frustration, Trust
Something pure and unsullied
Was battered
Something crept in
Something disturbed the serenity

Perhaps it was the distance
Possibly it was the work
Maybe it was just because of distraction
Whatever it was, it has changed what was once so simple
Though noticed long before admitted, it was not admitted
Now it’s apparent; it’s not the same

Now it’s solid and clear
It’s not how it once was
It’s still going, not wrecked
But wounded none the less

No matter what happens life goes on
If it ends, pain will follow
Tears will certainly be shed
Maybe it will finish
Maybe it will get better
Whatever the case, remaining strong