clear, dry day.
As I walked to the Psych building to turn in my paper about human brain development, I felt uneasy. It was not a cold feeling, though the wind went straight through my sweatshirt, but on the contrary, it felt as if my entire trunk had been put in a furnace for 10 seconds. Walking down to the basement, my heart started to race, and getting to the door I caught my breath.
My Psych teacher is by no means a scary man, he's fun and has good stories, and his class layout is helpful and promotes good grades. Why was I nervous?
I handed him my paper and said, "Thisprojectwasfunilikedititwasfuntodoilike psychology..." He looked at me and said, "well...good." and smiled politely. I existed briskly.
As soon as I left I felt better, but I also realized I've become somewhat afraid of talking to professors. HOW? WHY!? I am the same way when I go see my advisor, I get nervous.
I think I've written before about how sometimes it feels like some teachers are trying to make it harder for students to do well, not easier...well, I think that has infiltrated the makeup of my mind to the point of making me nervous around them even if they are wonderful teachers...this isn't good. I'm going to BE a teacher.
But I will be one that teaches out of respect and encouragement. I wont be lazy, I wont be judgmental, I wont be out to trick my students, and I wont be uninvolved. I most DEFINITELY will NOT have every piece of homework, and every test online. I hate online schooling. It has been my downfall and I HATE IT.
I'm having a wonderful day, nothing has gone wrong, lots of stuff has gone well, but I just hope I can get over this impractical anxiety around those that control my college career.
My Psych teacher is by no means a scary man, he's fun and has good stories, and his class layout is helpful and promotes good grades. Why was I nervous?
I handed him my paper and said, "Thisprojectwasfunilikedit
As soon as I left I felt better, but I also realized I've become somewhat afraid of talking to professors. HOW? WHY!? I am the same way when I go see my advisor, I get nervous.
I think I've written before about how sometimes it feels like some teachers are trying to make it harder for students to do well, not easier...well, I think that has infiltrated the makeup of my mind to the point of making me nervous around them even if they are wonderful teachers...this isn't good. I'm going to BE a teacher.
But I will be one that teaches out of respect and encouragement. I wont be lazy, I wont be judgmental, I wont be out to trick my students, and I wont be uninvolved. I most DEFINITELY will NOT have every piece of homework, and every test online. I hate online schooling. It has been my downfall and I HATE IT.
I'm having a wonderful day, nothing has gone wrong, lots of stuff has gone well, but I just hope I can get over this impractical anxiety around those that control my college career.
posted by Oh, Idaho at 8:11 PM
3 Comments:
Hey, kid. I think I have the same stigma against older men - authority figures ...and do often feel as though I am "existing" briskly around them ;)
Hahahah. I had a good laugh at the transcript from the talk with your professor. And then I had a good laugh at myself for reading the blogs of people I don't even know, and leaving my thoughts on each one.
We're in it together,
Reed.
Your blog keeps getting better and better! Your older articles are not as good as newer ones you have a lot more creativity and originality now keep it up!
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