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Is it vain to say my eyes look absolutely amazing in this picture? No? Good!

So, for the past two months I've been stuck in a certain situation...It's when-you can't-go to sleep-cuz-the-person-you-can't-stop-thinking-about-is-in-your dreams-EVERY-FREAKIN'-NIGHT situation. Even though I'm not suppose to care in the day my mind has a mind of its own at night and it's at this point in time where it decides to play the best scenarios in my head over and over again and even remind me of my favorite memories...It's a scream, let me tell ya.

I'll be at work at my new, well paying job and I'll see these baby-faced blond boys come in with their perfectly ripped jeans or their oily work pants er whatever and they'll flirt with my other cashier co-workers and they'll coo and fawn over the guys and everyone's just eatin' it all up then theres me, sitting there, watching this happen, totally not flirting with anyone and all I'm thinkin' is,"i got to wrap my arms around someone once, you don't remind me of him at all." It's a sticky situation I'm in; a bittersweet mess that I am STILL not letting go of for some reason and I know exactly what that reason is...Ask me if you want to the next time you see me and I'll tell you...maybe...though, one of my four readers already knows.

I'm learning a lot at my new job. I've only been there two days but so far I know what noise a rabbit makes when it's dieing, i know the description of what deer urine smells like, I know how to return/exchange things, I know how to check out a gun, I've mastered my Elk impersonation, I know how much crocks(the shoes)are, I know our prices compared to Cabela's , and I have the best intercom voice ever. If this job weren't so boring I'd never even THINK of giving it up, but it's SO BORING! I stand for 9 hours and wait...just waiting, it's all I do, good thing I'm a patient person...

I've said it before and I'll say it again: God's biggest challenge for me is and might always be: waiting.